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main 9 veen kaksha mein tha, aap 10 veen kaksha mein the. mujhe aapase jim class mein hee pyaar ho gaya. mainne aapase baat karana shuroo kiya aur mainne vaastav mein aapakee kampanee ka aanand liya.

ek saptaahaant jab main apane pitaajee ke saath tha, mainne aapaka instaagraam dhoondh liya, aur aapako paath karana shuroo kar diya. hamane baat kee aur baat kee, phir mujhe apana pyaar kabool karana pada. main ise ab aap se nahin rakh sakata. to mainne aapako bataaya, aur aapane kaha ki aapane mujhe vaapas pasand kiya hai. hamane deting shuroo kar dee hai aur main aapako apane dimaag se nahin nikaal sakata. aapaka pyaar ek dava tha.

phir hamen apane rishte ke 2 ven saptaah mein mil gaya, hamane kuchh saamaan bheja, jo ki shaayad 13 aur 14 ko hona chaahie tha, lekin aapako yah sahee laga aur main aapako mere saath khush rakhana chaahata tha. agale haphte skool mein hamane 1 peeriyad se pahale banaana shuroo kiya, jab ham donon spenish mein the.

phir krisamas ke samay ke aasapaas aapane mujhase kaha ki aapane mujhe dhokha diya hai. aur yah ki aap vaastav mein bura mahasoos karate hain aur aap nahin jaanate ki aap kya kar rahe the / soch rahe the, ki aap apane aap ko sone ke lie roe kyonki aapako aisa karane mein sharm mahasoos huee. aapane mujhe bataaya ki vah ladakee (jo meree jim klaas mein bhee thee, isalie vah jaanatee thee ki ham deting kar rahe hain) ne yah majaak ke roop mein kiya tha, aapase yah kahate hue jhooth bola tha ki usake kutte kee haal hee mein mrtyu huee thee, aur usake pitaajee ko kainsar tha. mujhe dukh tha ki aapane aisa kiya. tab aapane mujhe bataaya ki aapane khud ko maarane ka socha tha. main tumhen chhod nahin sakata. isake baare mein sochakar bhee mujhe bahut bura laga. tab mainne kaha ki yah theek hai aur vah yah tha.

lagabhag 5 saptaah baad, cheejon ka patan shuroo ho gaya.

hamane budhavaar ko jim chhod diya aur hamane kuchh saamaan kiya. agale din mainne aapase aur bhee adhik pyaar kiya, haalaanki mujhe laga ki ham gambheer sankat mein padane vaale hain. tab aapane mujhe yah kahakar dilaasa diya ki ham museebat mein nahin padenge aur yadi ham aisa karate hain to aap isake lie dosh lenge aur kahenge ki aapane mujhe majaboor kiya.

ham pakade nahin gae. ????

phir lagabhag 2 saptaah baad hamane phir se baahar kiya, hamen 1 avadhi tak deree ho gaee. kintu vah theek hai. mainne kaha ki mujhe apana lokar khula nahin mila. lekin aapane mujhe kuchh aisa karane ke lie kaha jo mainne kabhee nahin kiya. main yah kahane ke lie nahin ja raha hoon, kyonki yah uchit nahin hai. lekin mainne kaha nahin aur tab aapane mujhe vah udaas chehara diya jab bhee main nahin kahata. isalie mainne ise kiya aur pachhataava kiya.

doosaree avadhi aaee aur main apane sabase achchhe dost se baat kar raha tha ki kya hua tha aur usane mujhe yah sochane par majaboor kar diya ki tum doosaree ladakee ke saath doosaree baar phir se mere saath dhokha kar rahe ho. usane mujhe yah bhee kaha ki agar tumhaara bas mujhe niyantrit karane ja raha hai to mujhe tumhaare saath nahin hona chaahie. to mainne usase poochha ki tum mere saath toot jao kyonki main shaayad isake baare mein ek billee ban jaoonga aur rona shuroo kar doonga. to main usake lanch par gaya aur usane ise instaagraam par kiya.

hamaare paas jim tha aur aap andar nahin jaenge. shaayad yah meree vajah se tha. mujhe nahin pata. aur mujhe nahin lagata ki mainne notis kiya kyonki mainne kiya tha. ???? aapako andar jaane ke lie kaha gaya aur aakhirakaar aapane kiya. mujhe vaastav mein bura laga aur mujhe isaka pachhataava hua.

saptaah ke baakee dinon ke lie mainne aapase baat karane kee koshish kee aur aapako bataaya ki mainne aisa kyon kiya. lekin aapane keval meree upeksha kee. isalie mainne aapako 10 baar paath kiya, lekin aapane koee javaab nahin diya. aur ab main udaas hoon. koee majaak nahin. main bas phir se aapake saath rahana chaahata hoon

aapane mujhe bahut khush kar diya hai aur ab main mushkil se ek muskaan ko bhee majaboor kar sakata hoon. yah abhee bhee ek hee varsh hai aur abhee bhee ek saath jim mein the. isalie mujhe ummeed hai ki ham abhee bhee ek saath vaapas aa sakate hain aur shaayad is baar kaam kar sakate hain. main ab bhee tumase pyaar karata hoon aur hamesha karata rahoonga.

yadi aapaka yah padhana, mujhe aasha hai ki ham punah aarambh kar sakate hain. ????????