depression change everything

DEPRESSION CHANGE EVERYTHING

mainne is sachchee kahani aur anubhav ko ek kahani ke naam par rakha hai jisane mujhe is vebasait par prerit kiya.

main apanee 8 saal kee vartamaan premika ke saath bure daur se gujar raha hoon. 8 saal ek lamba samay hai aur hamaare lie itana kuchh hai. hamane abhee haal hee mein ek saath ek ghar khareeda hai. christmas se theek pahale. hamaare nae ghar mein hamaara pahala christmas. sab kuchh bahut achchha chal raha tha. vah hamaare bhavishy ke lie bahut khush aur utsaahit thee. lekin is baar pichhale haphte vah achaanak ek depression mein aa gaee ...

usaka daada hospital mein hai, aur dukh kee baat hai ki vah hamaare saath jyaada samay tak nahin rah sakata hai. usane pahale hee sveekaar kar liya hai ki yah vahee hai jisane usaka depression shuroo kiya lekin mujhe baahar kyon band kiya? mujhe vah vyakti hona chaahie jisase vah kisee bhee cheez ke baare mein baat kar sake. isake bajaay, use lagata hai ki jab bhee main yah dikhaane kee koshish karatee hoon ki main usase pyaar karatee hoon aur usakee paravaah karatee hoon, to vah mujhase napharat aur gussa karatee hai. main kuchh bhee sahee nahin kah sakata ya kar sakata. jab bhee main usake lie vahaan jaane kee koshish karata hoon aur main khud ko sveekaar karata hoon ki main apane rishte ke lie dara hua hoon to vah gussa ho jaatee hai aur mujh par yah sab karane ka aarop lagaatee hai, jaise ki main tebal ko chaaloo karane kee koshish kar raha hoon aur use khed mahasoos kar raha hoon main aur main usake lie chinta ke saath kya kar raha hoon. main use khone se avishvasaneey roop se darata hoon. main usake bina apane jeevan kee kalpana nahin kar sakata. main usake bina jeevan nahin chaahata. hamaare paas aane jaane ke lie bahut kuchh hai.

vah apanee job se napharat karatee hai aur isakee vajah se subah bistar se baahar nahin nikalana chaahatee. main usake saath madad karane kee koshish kar raha hoon main bas yah nahin chaahata ki any cheejon ke kaaran vah hamaare beech sab kuchh phenk de. vah pahale bhee aisa kar chukee hai. use pachhataava hua. vah mujhase chook gaee aur mere paas vaapas aa gaee. ham tab se itane majaboot hain. agar main use yaad dilaane kee koshish karata hoon ki usane ek baar pahale bhee yah galatee kee hai aur main nahin chaahata ki ham phir se gujaren to vah phir se ud jae! phir se kahata hai ki mujhe apanee paravaah hai. vah saty nahin hai. main use khone se dar gaya hoon aur main usake baare mein chintit hoon. usakee man: sthiti. main kisee ko ya kisee bhee cheej kee ummeed nahin kar sakata, jo mujhe aashvast karane mein saksham ho, main bas ise apane seene se utaarana chaahata hoon kyonki main isake baare mein usase baat nahin kar sakata. usane mujhe baahar nikaal diya. main is samay itana kamajor hoon aur agar mainne usake avasaad mein shaamil kar liya hai to main jaanana chaahata hoon ki yah kya hai jo mainne kiya hai. mujhe ummeed hai ki bahut der nahin huee hai. main usase pyaar karata hoon

proud red rose

PROUD RED ROSE

Ek sunder vsant din ek lal🌹 gulab ek jangal men khil gaya . jaise hi gulab ne charon or dekha , pas ke ek pine ka ped ne kaha , " kya ek sunder fool hai ! kash man vah pyara hota . " ek aur 🌲ped ne kaha , " priy pine , dukhi mat ho . humare pas sabakuchh nahi ho sakta . " gulab ne mudkar tippani ki , " aisa lagata hai ki man is jangal men sbuse khubsurat fool hun . " ek 🌼 surjamukhi ne apane peele sir ko uthaya aur poochha , " tum kyon kahte ho ?

 is jangal men kai khubsurat fool han . aap unmen se ek han . " lal gulab ne jawab diya , " man har kisi ko dekh raha hun aur mujhe prationsa karta hun . " tab gulab ne ek cacts ko dekha aur kaha , " use badasurat paudhe ko kanton se bhara dekho ! "🌲 pine tri ne kaha , " lal gulab , yah kis tarah ki bat hai ?

kaun kah sakta hai ki sundrata kya hai ? aapake kante bhi han . " garv lal🌹 gulab gusse men pine men dekha aur kaha , " maine socha tha ki aapake pas achha swad tha ! aap nahi jante ki sundrata kya hai . aap mere kanton ki tulana cacts ki tulana nahi kar sakte han . " " kya garv ka fool , " pedon ko socha . 🌹gulab ne apani jaden ko cacts se dur le jane ki koshish ki , lekin yah hil nahi saka . jaise - jaise din bitate han , lal gulab cacts ko dekhata hai aur apmanjank chijen kahta hai , jaise ' yah sanyantr bekar hai .

 mujhe kitana khed hai ki man useka padosi hun . ' cacts kabhi pareshan nahi hua aur yahan tak ki gulab ki salah dene ki bhi koshish ki , " bhagwan ne kisi uddeshy ke bina jivan ka koi rup nahi banaya . " vsant parit ho gaya , aur mausam bahut garm ho gaya .

jangal men jivan mushkil ho gaya , kyonki barish nahi hui thi . lal gulab vilt karne laga . ek din 🌹gulab dekha ki chidiyon ne apane chonch ko cacts men chipka diya aur fir ud gaya , taza kiya . yah pareshan tha , aur lal gulab ne pine ke ped se poochha ki pakshi kya kar rahe the .

pine🌲 tri ne samjhaya ki pakshiyon ko cacts se pani mil raha tha . " jab ve chhed karte han to kya yah chot nahi karta hai ? " 🌹gulab se poochha . chhoti kahaniyan -- spairo " han , lekin cacts pakshiyon ko peedit nahi dekhna pasand karta hai , " pine ne jawab diya . gulab ne apani aankhon ko aasturyachkit kar diya aur kaha , " cacts men pani hai ? " " han , aap isse bhi pi sakte han . yadi aap madd ke liye cacts se poochhate han to spairo aapako pani la sakta hai . " lal gulab ko bhi cacts se pani mangne ke liye sharminda mahsus hua , lekin aakhirkar yah madd mangi . 

cacts kripya sahmat ho gaya . pakshiyon ne apani chonch ko pani se bhar diya aur gulab ki jadon ko pani diya . is prakar gulab ne ek sabak sikha aur kabhi bhi apani upsthiti se kisi ko bhi faisala nahi kiya .