It wasn't love ,it was an attachment

It wasn't love, It was an attachment

yah ek tinder swipe ke sath shuru hua . kisane socha hoga ki man vastv men pyar men pad jaunga aur ek tinder match ke sath jivan sajha karunga . hmane aakhirkar milne ka faisala karne se pahle 5 mahine ki bat ki . aur vah bahut achha tha , vah ek bahut dayalu aur dekhbhal karne vale ladke ki tarah lag raha tha . ek bar jab hum mile to hmane apana rishta shuru kiya . yah bahut achha shuru hua . humare rishte men ek mahine hmane ek sath rahane ka faisala kiya .

 man apane apartment men chale gaye aur hmane ise ek sath ghar bana diya . yah majedar , adbhut tha aur kabhi akela nahi tha . main useke sath pyar men tha aur mujhe pata tha ki man tha . vah pahle " man tumse pyar karta hun " kahane vala pahla vyakti tha aur mere pas gosevemp the . hum ek sath khush lag rahe the lekin man galt tha . ek sath rahane ke lagbhag 5-6 mahine bad unhone apmanjank hona shuru kar diya . raton ne un raton men aansu se bhare hue bari ki shuruaat ki . aasturya hai ki kya vah mujhse pyar karta hai , soch raha hai ki vah mere prati wafadar tha ya nahi . unhone bhavanatmak rup se aur sharirik rup se mujhe durvyavahar karna shuru kar diya . lekin man usse pyar karta tha .

 man is aadami ke bina apane jivan ki kalpana nahi kar saka . man sanlagn tha . ek rat hum pi rahe the aur unhone apane mobile par apane sabhi social media men hastakshar kiye the aur unhone bhi apane aap ko chhod diya tha , yahan tak ki baithane ke liye bahut nashe men ho gaya tha . isaliye man apane liye dekhane ke liye bathrum men a gaya , agar yah aadami mere prati wafadar tha . mera dil daud raha tha aur man crodh se bhara tha aur mujhe chot pahunchane ki ummid nahi thi jo mujhe chot pahunchayegi . aap kya jante han vah anya ladkiyon ko bata raha tha ki vah unhen pyar karta tha . vah unhen jald hi dekhenge aur kya nahi . un ladkiyon men se kuchh se jude hue honge aur man vahan baith gaya aur tut gaya . man useke samane aane ke liye gaya . nagn ko useke chehare men rakho aur poochha " kya bakwas yah hai " . vah mujh par itana pagal ho gaya , aur vah nashe men tha ki usene mujhe apani chijon ko dekhane ke liye haraya .

 main chhodna nahi chahata tha . man kisi aur ko useki kalpana nahi kar saka . man use rat ek alag bistar men so gaya . jab hum agale din uth gaye to unhone aisa kuchh bhi nahi kiya . vah mujhe chum raha tha aur mujhse poochh raha tha ki man useke sath kyon nahi soya . man bas chuppi men itana haraya ki sab se bahut dukhi hai . mujhe un kuchh mahinon men pata chala ki vah mere charon or gadbad kar raha tha aur man abhi bhi use chhodna nahi chahata tha . kuchh aur mahine bit gaye aur maine aakhirkar un ladkiyon men se ek ko message kiya jo vah bat kar raha hai aur usene mujhe phone karne ke liye kaha . usene mujhe sab kuchh bataya jo unke bich chala gaya aur mujhe lagata hai ki usene dhokha diya . maine useke bare men unka samana kiya aur usene mere chehare par jhuth bola .

maine bas ise mere pichhe rakha aur use par vishwas kiya . din bitenge aur humara rishta abhi bhi pahadi se niche chala gaya aur mujhe pata tha ki yah kahi bhi nahi ja raha tha . ek din mere pas apane fb ki sthiti par tippaniyon ka ek guchha tha jo mujhe khud ko marne ke liye kah raha tha . anyatha vah mujhe marne ki dhamki dega . ek din man bahut dukhi tha ki maine use ek shabd kahe bina chhod diya . mere pas unse kai sandesh the ki kya man thik tha aur vah mujh par janch kar raha tha aur kuchh ne mujhe un shabdon ke sath cace kaha tha . man jo kuchh bhi kaha tha useke liye man gir gaya . man useke pas gaya aur useke sath sone ke bad vah mere prati ek gdhe hone ke liye vapas chala gaya . aur man vapas jahan shuru hua tha , man vapas a gaya tha . man thodi der ke liye useke sath rahata tha aur vah abhi bhi usi ladki se sampark kar raha tha jise maine bulaya tha . vah mujhe un chijon ke scrin shots bhejegi jo vah kahti han aur yah vastv men dil tod rahi thi .

 main abhi bhi useke bare men unka samana karunga lekin vah sabakuchh asweekar karna shuru kar dega aur kahta hai ki vah usse pyar nahi karta hai ya fir use bahut bure namon ko bulayega . lekin vah abhi bhi usse bat karega . man chot lagi thi . man dur raha aur usene mujhe humare rishte ke liye sharmili hone ke liye doshi thahraya . ant men yah use bindu par pahunch gaya jahan mujhe parwah nahi thi ki vah kaun sandesh dega . man use chhodne se darta nahi tha . to man ant men use chhod diya .

 maine khud ko pahle rakha . man vah sab kuchh karne ja raha tha jab man useke sath tha tab man karne men saksham nahi tha . yah kisi aise vyakti ko chhodkar itana kathin hai jise aap ke liye bahut mahsus karte han . unke sath itana samay bitana aur fir achank yah sab khatm ho gaya . lekin unmen se use ruchi ko khona sbuse achhi bhavana hai . 20 navambar 2018 vah antatah 3 aaropon ke liye adalt men gaya jo maine niche rakha . man ab aur nahi kar saka . man swatantr hun . maine kabhi bhi zinda aur emandari se mahsus nahi kiya hai , lekin mere jane ke liye itani der lag gai lekin man