my lost love

MY LOST LOVE

Doston, aaj main aapako apanee story sunaata hoon. mera naam selina hai. yah mere jeevan kee kahaanee hai, ek bahut hee sachchee dil dahala dene vaalee kahaanee hai jo mere saath kya hota hai, yah sochakar meree aankhon mein aansoo la detee hai. mera naam selina hai aur aaj main aap logon ke saath apanee kahaanee saajha karoonga, yah kahaanee spasht roop se mere aur mere jeevan ke lav booboo ke saath sambandhit hai.

main aur boobo 2016 mein mile, hamane ajanabiyon ke roop mein shuruaat kee aur samay ke saath bahut achchhe dost ban gae. ham vaastav mein dost ke roop mein kareeb the aur main us samay ek vishaakt sambandh mein tha. rohit ke naam se main jis ladake ko det kar raha tha, usake saath mere aps end daun the ..

aakhirakaar vah khatm ho gaya. booboo meree madad karane, mera samarthan karane aur mujhe is sab ke maadhyam se maargadarshan karane ke lie vahaan tha. samay ke saath, mainne boobo ke lie bhaavanaon ko badhaana shuroo kar diya, usake baare mein sochana shuroo kar diya sirph ek sabase achchhe dost se. ham ek saath bahut samay bita rahe the, ghanton kaar mein baithe rahe, baaten karate rahe, baat karate rahe, to beshak usake lie meree bhaavanaen pahale se kaheen jyaada kathin aur tej ho gaeen. 14 pharavaree 2018 ke din, velentain de jise main apane bf ke saath samay bitaane ke lie maan gaya tha, lekin ab poorv premee ..

rohit. lekin isake bajaay ise booboo ke saath bitaane ka phaisala kiya. ham bhayaanak baatacheet, lambee draiv, pey kee ek mahaan raat thee. kuchh pey hone par main use gaal par chooma aur use restaraan ham par the kee ek garm gale ke baahar diya aur usane mujhe vaapas gale lagaaya. main hairaan tha ki mainne abhee kya kiya aur kya hua.

 lekin mujhe pata tha ki nasha ke tahat baahar aane ke lie ve meree aantarik bhaavanaen theen. raat phir bhee theek ho gaee, bina kisee aahat ke. main ghar gaya aur poore samay boobo ke baare mein soch raha tha. agale din, mainne use phir se dekha .. hamane phir se piya. aur ek doosare ke lie apanee bhaavanaon ko vyakt kiya. ham gale lagaaya, chooma, aur premee aur premika ban gaya. vah din tha jab ham aadhikaarik ho gae the. lekin ruko, kahaanee mein ek mod tha .. vah mere poorv premee ko jaanata tha kyonki mere maadhyam se ve dost the vah nahin jaanata tha ki usaka saamana kaise karana hai aur use bataen ki vah ab apanee premika ko det kar raha hai, isalie ham donon rohit se bachana shuroo kar diya aur jaaree rakha hamaara jeevan jeena aur apana poora samay ek saath bitaana. din aur nighr ham kisee bhee din skip kie bina ek saath rahenge, vah mujhe sab kuchh khareed lega, mujhe saaree khushiyaan de dega, kuchh bhee nahin jo mainne kabhee nahin maanga, mujhe nahin mila, vah mere lie duniya laee, mujhe vo saaree khushee kisee bhee ladakee se mil sakatee thee poochhana.

 jis tarah se, hamaare paas itane saare log the jo hamen alag karane kee koshish kar rahe the, lekin hamen alag nahin kiya, kyonki ham abhee bhee majaboot aur ek saath the. 4 maheene aise hee beet gae ..

phir ek din, jab cheejen gambheer hone lageen, boobo ne mere lie apanee aantarik bhaavanaon ko kabool kar liya aur mujhe bataaya ki vah sharaab peena aur dhoomrapaan karana chaahatee hai kyonki usaka parivaar is baat ko sveekaar nahin karata hai .. mainne use theek kaha, aur usee din se mainne use kaat diya. mere peene par. mujhe ek lat aur ek buree aadat thee jo mujhe us samay pata thee ki mujhe jaane dena hai aur mainne vahee kiya. main har ek din .. saptaah ke har din ek samay mein ek baar peene se chala gaya.

ab ham 6 maheene ke ho chuke hain, aur mere lie usakee bhaavanaen din-ba-din aur bhee gaharee hotee gaeen, yahaan tak ki main use aur bhee jyaada tadapa raha tha aur is samay mainne use apana sab kuchh de diya tha. main unake parivaar se mila, ve pahale hee mujhase mil chuke the .. vaapas jab ham sirph dost the. lekin boobo ko pareshaan karane vaalee ek baat thee aur vah tha mera ateet .. use ek samasya thee kyonki usane mere poorv premee ka chehara dekha tha aur vah use bahut pareshaan karega.

hamaara rishta achchhe se bure mein turant badal gaya. har tark mein mera ateet shaamil hota hai .. aur vah sirph is tathy ko nahin le sakata hai ki mere saamane koee aur tha. jaise-jaise din beetate gae hamaare jhagade bure se badatar hote gae aur har cheej ko vishaakt banaate gae. tabiyat kharaab huee

haal hee mein .. ek din hamane brek liya. is brek ke dauraan .. mainne ek galatee kee aur hamaare beech sab kuchh gadabad kar diya, main ek deting sait se ek ladake ke saath baahar gaya aur use pata chala. mainne ise maar diya, aur usakee duniya ko tod diya aur vah toot gaya aur aaj vah mere saath achchha kiya gaya.

doston, ek baat jab main is vyakti ke saath tha tab main spasht chaahata tha .. ki main soshal meediya sait par mila tha .. poore samay main baat kar raha tha