The maze of time

                                      

                                                          (samay ka chakravyooh )

kabhi-kabhi jeevan mein kuchh aise kisse hote hain jinhen yaad karake hamesha khushee milatee hai. jab ham ateet mein bitae dukhad kshan ke baare mein sochate hain to aisa lagata hai ki vah kshan kitana bhayaanak tha aur yah sochakar khush tha ki ab vah kshan phir se vaapas nahin aaega.

lekin agar baat ateet ke sukhad kshan kee ho, to ham isake maadhyam se muskuraate hain, aur jab ham yaadon kee khidakee se baahar nikalate hain, to halkee muskaan ke saath aankhen nam hotee hain aur phir, hamaaree reedh ke maadhyam se ek chil tarang chalatee hai jo hamen ehasaas dilaata hai ki pal beet chuke hain. ek smrti shrrnkhala ateet, vartamaan aur bhavishy. hamaaree yaadon ke maadhyam se ham apane ateet ko vartamaan mein jeete hain aur bhavishy mein ise jaaree rakhane kee ummeed karate hain lekin kuchh yaaden peechhe rah jaatee hain aur bhavishy mein pravesh karane mein asaphal ho jaatee hain.

mera jeevan paripoorn hai. mere paas pyaar karane vaale maata-pita, dekhabhaal karane vaale bhaee-bahan aur sahaayak dost hain. main apanee chhotee see duniya mein khush hoon lekin kisee ne mujhe apanee duniya mein kuchh jagah dene ke lie kaha. main apanee duniya ko usake saath saajha karane se jyaada khush tha. samay beetane ke saath, unhonne apane pyaar, dekhabhaal aur sneh se meree duniya ko jeet liya. ab yah meree duniya nahin thee, lekin hamaaree main usake saath behatareen pal bitaata tha, vah mere baare mein sabakuchh jaanata tha. koee bhee paripoorn nahin ho sakata, lekin mere lie vah lagabhag poorn tha.

 unaka maasoom chehara, komal aankhen, muskuraahat aur komal andaaj mein svaagat ne mujhe apanee duniya chhodane par majaboor kar diya aur unhonne ise pahale se bhee jyaada khoobasoorat bana diya. unake chhote aashchary, lambee sair, sukhadaayak shabdon ne mujhe aisa mahasoos karaaya jaise mujhe duniya kee saaree khushiyaan milee hon.

 kaee maukon par meree aankhon mein aansoo the, lekin mujhe unhen bahaane mein khushee mahasoos huee kyonki mere paas khud ko vyakt karane ka koee tareeka nahin tha, mere aansoo mere lie bolate the. un sabhee khoobasoorat yaadon ko samete hue hain, jinhen main vishesh roop se us vyakti ke lie bahut pasand karata hoon, jisakee dekhabhaal karata hoon aur mahatvapoorn hoon, visheshakar us vyakti ke lie, jise main sabase jyaada pyaar karata hoon.

paanch saal beet gae hain lekin mujhe lagata hai ki ham kal hee mile the lekin jin yaadon ko hamane apane milane se vanchit kiya hai. aaj mere jeevan ka sabase achchha hissa hone ja raha hai, main hamesha ke lie usake saath rahane ke lie ek gaanth baandhoonga. yah samaaroh saabit karega ki mujhe banaaya gaya tha aur aap kee talaash mein tha aur hamesha ke lie aapaka ho jaata hai lekin, main abhee bhee usaka intajaar kar raha hoon ki vah kyon nahin dikha raha hai? aaj meree shaadee hai, maahaul thanda lag raha hai meree apanee khushee mujhe andar hee andar maar rahee thee. mainne apane keematee gahanon aur behatareen kapadon mein khud ko usake saamane sabase achchha pesh karane ke lie sajaaya hai, lekin vah abhee tak kyon nahin pahuncha? pal beetate gae, uttejana kee garmaahat mere aasapaas ke cheharon kee tarah thand mein badal rahee hai. oh! kya unakee aankhon mein aansoo hain? yah mujhe aansuon ke saath hona chaahie, lekin main unhen mahasoos nahin karata. meree maan ke zor se chillaane kee aavaaz ne mujhe apane vichaaron se vaapas le liya. ant mein main use dekh sakata hoon, vah ek mahila ke saath dikhaee dee hai, jisamen vah mere vipareet ganda dikh raha hai.

main mahila ko dekhane ke lie bhaaga. usaka chehara mere saath mel khaata tha, mainne bahut saare savaal poochhe lekin vah nahin suna. vah nirjeev roop se aage badh raha hai, vah mere sparsh ko mahasoos nahin kar sakata hai. main rukane ke lie usake saamane khada tha lekin vah mere paas se gujaree.

tab mujhe ehasaas hua, main apane jeevan mein na keval asaphal raha balki smrti mein bhee asaphal raha. aur varshon baad bhee jab main us pal ko yaad karata hoon to main sahamat hota hoon, sochata hoon, us kahaanee mein meree bhoomika bahut kam thee, aap kah sakate hain ki bhagavaan! meree bhoomika ko kaat diya tha.

 lekin kahaanee ke kuchh paatron kee najar mein, jab main jikr karata hoon, tab bhee aansoo ludhak jaate hain. kitana achchha tha. main apane parivaar, doston aur vishesh roop se usaka ek hissa tha. mujhe pata hai aur aisa lagata hai ki kuchh jeevan samay ke saath jude hue hain, ek praacheen koling dvaara yugmit hai jo umr ke maadhyam se pratidhvanit hota hai.